Anorexia Nervosa and Depression: A Real-Life Account
Updated: Feb 10, 2021
Below is a real-life account of an individual suffering from Anorexia Nervosa binge-purge as well as depression and anxiety. We at MonuMental hope that through reading this, others struggling with the same problems will feel less alone and perhaps be motivated to get help if they can. You can join the movement and aide us in destigmatizing mental health by clicking the #ShareYourStory link at the top of this page.
A Real-Life Account:
"I haven't really been able to ever really tell my story but here goes.. I was a really happy kid, not caring about weight, looks, or friends for a while. I think it was around 4th grade where I was realizing "oh I'm bigger than my friends." That was pointed out during ballet class one day. I don't know why but that stuck with me for a while. Given that classes do change every year, I was always making new friends. Now we come to 5th grade. I was in 2 friend groups, one was more accepting and the other was more "cool." I was in a group where everyone was smaller than me; I bought double lunch everyday because I was hungry. I sat with different groups as well. The "newer" one pointed out that I did in fact eat a lot. I guess that was just the downward spiral of everything. I remember going on YouTube and just seeing skinny girls everywhere. Then came around my 6th grade year. I went to McDonalds and didn't really want to eat so I just skipped it. I started skipping meals and I honestly felt so good doing it. Then outdoor Ed came around and I completely lost control, everyday there I would be outside doing some form of exercise and not eating anything. There were people from other schools that commented about how I looked. Everything got really bad so I started to cut. I remember friends that I would confide in, but I still felt bad doing so I stopped. They would say its annoying and that I should stop talking about myself. So that's when I held everything in. It got worse as I couldn't cry nor say anything about it. There's been multiple attempts to end my own life and everything's going down hill. I tried getting better by myself but my soon to be eating disorder got worse too. Everyday was filled with depression anxiety and no will to live. I got diagnosed with Anorexia nervosa binge-purge sub type as well as depression and anxiety. I never really started getting better. everyday is still a struggle. I believe I stopped cutting in the past summer and resorted to burning myself in the spring of 2020. Its still very much a struggle and I just wanted to say my story and yeah. I think I destroyed myself with depression and my eating disorder. Not to mention I've been through toxic friendships that mainly ruined my life. But I'm working on getting better, and I found myself new friends that are nice and I enjoy being with."
Thank you for sharing your story. We're sure you have helped many others suffering from similar struggles! You have so much strength and courage, working on getting better and finding dependable friends is a step in the right direction. Changing your mindset is difficult, but with your strength, you can do anything. Contact us if you need anything. Don't underestimate yourself. Sending love 💓
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